Cycles of Life

It has come to a time in my life that my parents have come to a cycle in their lives that they have created with alot of lows in their emotions.

I sit before you higher SELF to ask why they have chosen or did life choose them to be in their lack of lust for life. They sit in worries and bodily pains and neither will listen to lifting out of this state. They are dead before dying!! Please help me to understand how to view their state with a better understanding and compassion for helping them to live each day with a smile with a laugh*****

Higher Self: Awe my Angel, human life can have cycles of highs and lows and
as you progress in your phases you have been brain washed into believing that as you age you take on ill health. Do you choose how you want your life span to be you ask?
YES, you first must connect internally with God on a daily basis and be grateful for each and every aspect of your life and even the life of a bird an insect so on and so on.

Some humans have such a strong imprint of their parents suffering that they unconsciously have taken on their imprint and made it theirs. It is planted deep into their cellular structure.

Me: How do I help them to remove this imprint?

Higher Self: You cannot help them to remove this imprint, they must seek it on their own. What I can lovingly suggest you can do for them, you and your future generations is to observe the patterns that you see before you…from your grandparents to your parents and wake up to realizing how the “imprints” are so strong and the key ingredient for helping your futures is to “choose” to be the observer of their actions, their words but DO NOT become emotionally attached to their phases or cycles. When you allow yourself to become emotionally attached you are opening up every memory cell to its vulnerable state.

Me: What do you mean I am opening up my cells to a vulnerable state? I never heard of this..

Higher Self: Your cells are alive with life and they can hear and feel all sorts of emotions and they keep them stored within their fibers to help you in times of need*** a memory recall of sorts***

Me: But, if I only become an observer does this make me emotionless to their feelings of hurt of pain, etc.? I do not want to be cold.

Higher Self:
To be an observer is to be the witness of energy***you all are made up of pure energy. When you turn on a light does the light greet you with happiness or sadness with any kind of emotion ? No, it is just there giving you light energy. We suggest that you do the same***you give your parents or anyone for that matter, your LOVE energy. It is not being cold if you greet someone who is experiencing any disharmony with LOVE without giving them a solution on how to help them lift out of their imprint. Love energy does it all for them? LOVE energy can take a negative energy source and convert it to a positive energy source.

Me: Just how do I be just LOVE if my father is in pain or my mother cries out of fear or frustration of not being able to take her environment anymore and she continues to say she is “tired”! Shouldn’t I at least come up with some sort of plan of relief for either one of them?

Higher Self: Yes! You put LOVE in your eyes and Love in your touch and you lovingly listen to them and stroke their body with the love that will flow out your fingertips and into their being. This action will help them to overcome any situation****remember dear one—–they chose this life and all one can do is help them through it. You cannot control their destiny BUT you can control how you will LOVE them thru it : )

Me: Thank you so much for helping me mentally align with this! I am always so filled with gratefulness and LOVE for your energy jumping in to HELP me : )

Higher Self:
Dearest of Love, we are always a thot away! We as well find great joy in helping you lift your consciousness. When you lift—you help so many others lift. Thank you Teenka : )

Change Your Static IP Address

It has been almost two years since I have had deep contemplation of any sorts…or even the need to go tap in with my I AM to receive any higher wisdom….BUT…….today it has come upon me to receive once again clarity on a situation.

So off I went to walk and talk with I AM….: )

Me:  Hello there I AM… has been a  long time of not giving you any guidance questions ..BUT today I hear the calling to speak to you…My situation is this….I always seem to get irritated with someone in my life….when they come into my space….I sense their uneasiness and I sense that they will not find anything joyful to say or do to keep me at a state that I practice daily to maintain.  They have their problems with life written on their sleeves for me to feel…I am not greeted with a smile or a hug….just a tired look of distress or a feeling of ……I don’t have time for you…deep sigh…….

I AM:  I giggle dear one at your irritation…Have you changed your Static IP address lately?

Me:  I’m happy I could bring you a little laughter!  I like this….What does changing my static IP Address have to do with anything?  Isn’t that for computer related type stuff?

I AM:  In a sense yes, but you humans operate just like a computer.  You take in programs through your eyes and ears and then you vocalize them.  This is Your “Individual PrintIP..and how you address your life at times seems to have some static in it…The static is there because your individual print still operates at an old program.  Sure you have changed your thots and try to create new energies to flow in a more positive manner in your life, BUT you have not changed the core of your I.P .to be one of LOVE….you have this little chip that remains on your hard drive that comes from FEAR.

Me:  Can you explain that a little more to me please…because I thot I did come from a space of LOVE…

I AM:  Dear one …if you did come from an internal place of LOVE then you would not find irritations in anyone…when you begin to recognize your human frailties, then you can annul an destroy them by expressing love, rather than the frailty.  Sometimes this is hard to do because you have such narrow habits of LOVE.  You must truly know that everyone that comes into your existence is your mirror of what you are projecting at a deeper level using the Individual Print/chip of FEAR…So, change your IP to address all situations with a LOVE mind…Conquer the thots that want to tell you that this is wrong ….that this may cause that person or child to behave or learn in an awful way …I have told you dear one numerous times….what you FEAR the most will always come to fruition….BUT if you operate with what you LOVE to see or happen the most…then THIS will become your new Grounded IP Address..

Me:  ok I understand the analogy…I really do….then why do I convert at times backwards to the chip of FEAR?

I AM: are not acting as a soul made up of Love Energy Only…Start by loving yourself a little more..Do not condemn yourself.  Do not judge this outward evidence as the state of inner growth.  You are all here to help your Souls break free from a backstage rookie and NOW your souls are wanting to be on the stage as the main character…so to speak..  Take each new day with me as your partner…just ask me to be your guidance before you begin the day…if you see yourself being pulled to go with old programs….take a deep breathe……..and ask me to help you see or come from an angle of LOVE THOTS..

Me:  Gosh I AM…I love you so much!!!!!!  Thank you again for helping me to have clarity on this situation..

I AM:  I thank you and love you so much ….Even tho it has been a while since you sat down to write…we talk daily you and I…….when you practice your morning rituals…I am there with YOU>>>ALWAYS and in ALL Ways….



Birth of the New Born

Hi my wonderful readers!  Yes, it has been a while since I have posted anything, but today my 4 year old granddaughter asked her mother ” Mommy, how did the first baby come to Earth without having a mother and father?”   So my beautiful I AM Presence, since you have directed me here to write this post, I shall turn over the writing to you.  Would you please enlighten us on the answer to this question?

I AM:  Absolutely ….you see little one you will grow up to possibly hear that the first child to be born to the Earth was thru a woman named Mary.  This woman gave birth to a child without a father in the physical form…but a father that is your father in a world bigger than your imagination will allow you to go right now.  This power which I will call God is a great energy that can be called upon with belief in your heart to bring forth whatever your desire may be.

Me:  Are you saying that Mary called upon God to give her a child and like a magic seed ….it grew inside her to become a child of hers?

I AM:  Yes!

Me:  Well then, why is it woman of the earth today cannot conceive a child by just asking God to help her body to produce a child within her body?

I AM:   Your “belief” has been  altered .  Your race was hence forth programmed to believe that a male species was needed in order to help you and all of nature to produce offsprings.

Me: Why was it altered?

I AM:  It was part of the dark forces agenda to remove your Powers as a One.  To this day, they have very much kept this belief instilled in the ALL.

Me:  Again, I ask why?

I AM:  Control my dear one…to be able to control the population.

Me:  This is not fair to US!  Can we change this pattern of belief ?

I AM:  Absolutely!  Woman are doing it all the time and so are the creatures of Nature.  The male species only assist the female by releasing his divine light energy onto the womans egg.  This is done to imprint the offspring with the males characteristics as well as the mothers.  You have only been brainwashed into thinking that the male is needed, but in fact HE is not.  Couples should start to understand their major role that they are playing when it is time to create or bring forth their imprints.  Woman CAN begin to bear children on their own, but they must have the BELIEF AND THE DESIRE to do so!

Me:  This is too much for my brain to comprehend and totally against what we were taught that about the act of creation to be.

I AM:  Yes my dear it is…for this we are truly sorry for the mis-information that has been bestowed upon humanity about this topic.  Your granddaughter is a very wise and bright Soul of the Future…and it just may be SHE that will reveal the truth too this question!!

Me:  Is this why we were taught or imbreaded into our consciousness with a touch or hint of a virgin mother ?

I AM:  YES….the days ahead will unfold the TRUTH…the light made sure to put this “code” into your books and KNEW that one day in the future time…”Curiousity” of your granddaughters question shall be asked amongst many children of your future.  As they are the ONES to help your kind survive onward 🙂

Me:  Wow!!! this is something for me to meditate on and I am sure many to ponder….Not sure …..that they will believe this post…Thank you I AM…as always, very grateful to connect with you!  I love you..

I AM:  As I love you my dear one…   I AM also very grateful that you have allowed your physical self to sit down and write this for all to see..

Are you SPOILING your child?

Well, you know me, when I am asked a question, ” am I spoiling my child” I go within and inquire from the higher I AM presence to get their version of this question.  Raising a child, we are often questioning ourselves if we give this or that to them at an every day pace if in fact this a sign of spoiling my child.  I, as a mother myself can recall the earlier years of raising my daughter and I was also a single parent for 7 years of her life, that I worked hard and made sure that my daughter never would want for nothing…that she would get whatever toy she desired…It made me feel good and it made her feel good to receive the toy.  I AM is this a form of spoiling?

I AM:  First of all dearness, what is this word “SPOIL”?  We have heard your species use this term, “spoiled rotten”.  Is your child really ready to die off ?  We mean the word “rotten” depicts, reaching its full potential of ripeness and then GONE!!!  Is your child really made up of “oil” a, lubricant ?

Me:  Well no, my child is not a lubricant and she is not rotten..but the phrase I think is meant that if you give a child all that they want, then they get so much that they never learn how to get if for themselves when they get older.

I AM:  I must laugh at your language!!! No one ever gets or are given all that they desire in life >>>>no one!!!  If they did, then there would be no reason to be on your planet.  Your planet is a place of contrast, the yes/no, the right/wrong, etc. Your children will learn the ins and outs of life as they progress down the road.  Their best examples of course are YOU, the parent(s).  If you are one to expect things to be handed to you ….then your child will more than likely follow this path or he/she may “choose” to find out how creative they are and go out and create their endeavors to obtain whatever it is they desire.

Have you ever wondered if by eating a meal(s) every day that you may be considered, SPOILED ?   Are you not getting something (food) daily ?

Me:  Yes, but I AM this is different…as this is helping our physical bodies to stay alive.

I AM:  Do you NOT think that the feeling of JOY that you or your child receives in the gift you give them is helping their physical bodies to stay alive?  JOY to the heart is so nutritional, that you all should find more ways to bring JOY to each others hearts in whatever ways you can…

Each child shall grow up and be-come their own imprint/identity..some will awaken to grasping the reality that is on your planet .  They will learn the way to do things and not do things…then there will be others that will become lost and not know how to create their life…but, each of you learn the game of life and “choose” how to move forward.  We say to always follow your own hearts when it comes to raising your children….and do not adhere to anyone elses “story” of how to do this..

Me:  Thank you so much for giving me/us another way to perceive this term “spoiled rotten”..  I totally overstand your view and it has helped me to see how our language if taken and dissected can give us a better viewpoint of how it can become twisted in our thots….only because we were taught its meaning by others to mean something other than what the word(s) actually are defined as…mind blowing to say the least!!!!

Stories Keep Us in Suffering



I really and truly would like to understand if I even need to create a story in order to be happy and peaceful.  I mean what or who are we as a species…why does everyone have to suffer at times in their life?  Suffering for me comes at times in small ways and then there are times that it comes in a huge wave of emotion!  My dear I AM can you help to understand what my innerheart is trying to convey here?

I AM:  Awe, your title says it all my dear one!  Once you begin to get a feeling for the many ways your thots and stories keep you in suffering, you’ve actually started to tap into something that has a much greater significance.

Me:  In what way?

I AM:  You can use your thots and stories to widen your view of life.  Any way that you make a construct out of life , any way that you come to conclusions in your mind about “what is” or “what was” or “what will be”, you are narrowing your experience of life.  These are all ways of which you argue with life..

Me:  Lost me there I AM!! Why do you calls this arguing with life?  Are we not suppose to understand who we are in this game of life by questioning the what is, what was or what will be?

I AM:  Any time you argue with what was, what is or what will be, you limit your ability to experience the vastness of who you are.  There’s no way around it.  It doesn’t matter what happened, or how cruel someone was, or how unfair something was.  It may have been all of those things and the pain may be very deep and real, but when you have a mental resistance, when you say something should or should have not happened, you are arguing with life.  You lose every single time…..and suffering wins!

Me:  Then how do we conduct ourselves in a way that can always keep us centered in calmness and still be able to speak our truth?

I AM:  Do you really have a truth  to speak dear one?  I hear so many on your planet say this is “my truth” all you really have our stories that your mind has decided to be the “truth”.  Why is it you cannot just be open minded about all and just accept all “as is” ? 

Me:  I am open minded…I am not following you…

I AM:  When your minds start to open, you are no longer in a constant state of evaluation and judgment.  Naturally, then your senses open and you can really see what is before you.  Your eyes open in different ways , your hearing opens in a different way, your emotions open , your hearts open to all of existence.  Open-mindedness allows you to embrace the nature of your experience.  This does not mean you have to like every experience that you have.  There are experiences (stories) that are painful; there are experiences that are unpleasant.  Open-Mindedness doesn’t mean that you’re opening to just the good parts of life; it means you’re opening to everything.  This my dear one is when you discover a type of inner still-ness, an inner stability, that vast unchanging expanse that is at the heart of everything.  You see dear ones, your “stories” are what you base your life on.  We suggest, to every story that you find to be of disharmony to you and cause you some sort of suffering, that you change your perspective on how the story is being told. 

Me:  So what I am hearing is that Life is just a story and if the story is not harmonious then change the story? 

I Am:  No, don’t change the story…allow the story to be…but, don’t allow the story to define YOU>>>>> All your stories really are preprogrammed from birth..what you saw and felt from your environment..parents,, teachers …other children,…society…We say, ”  learn to be in the stillness of all and truly listen and feel “who you are!” 🙂




Our Physical Shell ( the body )

Hi to all!!! as it has been a while since I posted a personal discourse to my site.  I have been busy with “life” as of late and today I was instructed to write to myself and to all that read this.  Recently, I experienced a departure of a dear friend of mine…crossed over to the other side.  As I pondered the how comes and why her and why NOW ??? in came the wonderful I AM voice to explain to me and my confusion of her leaving now.

I AM:  why do you even question her departure dear one ?  You all have predestined your departure and as hard as it is for you to comprehend this, you will one day make sense of it all.  Each soul travels with their mission/lessons that they came to your earth to experience and you each will either complete them fully while in your physical-ness or cross over to continue your mission from that dimension.  She did not leave without knowing that what she left behind in the physical world, her loved ones of family and friends would not be cared for from their souls awareness and the love to carry on for her sake.

Me:  I just don’t understand why she would leave with having a daughter so young, who would find it difficult to move forward without her…how can I make sense of that?

I AM:  It is not for you to make sense of dear one…it is for her daughter and her mother to work on together.  Even tho the mother is not here in her physical form, she can still work with her daughters soul thru her dreams, thru people who can help her make sense of it all..her mother will guide the right people to come into her daughters life and help her along the path of existence..  You all have been taught to only believe in the physical form as a way to communicate ALIVENESS, when in fact there is even more to communication without seeing with your eyes..  One day your telepathy will expose itself to you..

Me:  What is telepathy mean?

I AM:  It is a way to use your inner ear (hearts feeling center) to talk and listen to spirits.  Like you do with me dear one.

Me:  I know that I do practice sharpening this wonderful tool/gift, but I wanted you to give the reader a better understanding of it.  Like how do you use your telepathy ?

I AM:  Take a moment to sit quiet, take some deep breathes and then allow yourself to visualize or if you cannot visualize then intend that you will be talking with whomever you wish to communicate with.  The one error I find with most of you is that you THINK when you hear your voice talking back at you that this is YOU or your EGO talking and it just does not make sense and you dismiss being able to practice this way of communicating to the unseen characters…KNOW that this is for REAL and they all await for each of you to awaken to this Truth of communicating with them.

Me:  Why do we even come here with a physical body?

I AM:  You come here to experience “matter” in its solid form…why ?  because what a treat to be able to feel emotions, to experience taste…your souls want “adventure” and this is one way they can experience it, thru the human vessel.  Once they are complete with what it is they came here for, they disperse themselves from the shell (body) and come back home…to rest….they may also choose to possibly come back to earth to finish what they could not master while they were there or they can go onto another  dimensional way of living.

Me:  I guess life as we know it….is a bigger UNDERSTANDING and the mystery will always be alive in us!!!  Thank you I AM !  Love you so so much!!! 🙂


As I sit back to review what I just heard and wrote, my conclusion is that what Devorah was teaching me was not to give her a label of leaving this world with having “cancer” . I know in my heart that she was here to give love and service to as many people that she could thru her words, acts and profession. I am blessed to have known her and to have spent moments in life with her.

She also taught me that it is not only what purity of food or water you put into your body that keeps you living in longevity, but how do we process our emotions that would spring up upon us, fear, anger, resentment that can disturb our souls journey thru life..we must find a way to forgive ourselves and others for harboring these emotions and to know in our hearts that life is precious in every moment of breath and to harbor any emotion that does not fill our hearts with JOY, can only cause us to practice fear as our way of life. Fear then becomes our Master and God/Love is on the back burner. Today and always I shall choose God/Love as my MASTER and dismiss fear thots that want to sneak into my consciousness and steer me into another direction..

I pray that when we decide to leave this planet, we will leave happy and with no disharmony within our souls !!

I love you Devo.. you will always be eternal in my heart..

Is Imagination a form of creation ?

I begin my thots today with “imagination”, is it really a form of creation?  If so, how does it work ?  Why don’t we know to use it as an adult?  I play with imagination once mostly when I am with my grand daughter and it’s funny that I teach her to use it, but I don’t use it for myself…so, I pose my thots of curiosity to my I AM presence.  Are you there ??

I AM:  I see you have a lot of curious thots my dear one about what you call “imagination” and I will do my very best to help you understand how it works and maybe then you will use it more 🙂  All of creation began with imagination and shall end with imagination!  Is it a live force within each and everyone of you ? YES it is…This word imagination starts with you putting an “image” in your thot process and thereby the image will take on life..the one that focuses more on their image the formation of life starts to unfold.  Life of imagination is “energy in circulation” and knowing energy in your world can manifest into a material reality, why would you not want to use your imagination more?

Me:  I was taught that imagination is only a play thing you do for fun and that it really does not create’s a non reality…

I AM:  Pashaw!!! It is real and valid…most of your creations of todays technology began in someones imagination, did it not?  Practice using your imagination daily dear one and then tell me if it is not real…what can you tell me now that is an imagination that you would like to create ?

Me:  I would love to wake up every day and feel and see crispness in the viewing of life.  I imagine that  as I am outdoors I see all the trees with beauty of each leaf upon the tree..i see the colors vivid in their green shades.  I see all the birds with clarity and I can understand their language.  I imagine that I go about each day with no concept of time and that each day is filled with lots of joy and playfulness!  I imagine that everyone on the planet is happy and that they want for nothing, as they have all that they need and more.  I imagine that my body is strong, energetically balanced and has the power of the universe flowing thru it !! I imagine that I have no age limitations and that my inner body vibrates as that of a healthy child.  I imagine that all I desire, such as spending however long I would like to at a home on the beach is POSSIBLE and that I don’t have to bring work to afford it… I imagine that I am abundantly affluent with money to do with as I please…to give to those that lack it..

I AM:  You see my dear one, YOU have imagination galore!!!  I want you to practice seeing all of this daily..the practice of writing it down as you did is a very powerful tool that helps to expedite imagination to be used more often and to therefore materialize into form that is tangible for you to see .  this is not wishful thinking…this is real and to believe that it is, is the “secret” that has been blocked from your memory banks…NOW is the time to use it and to help others to use it more as well.  The more that your species uses it for the betterment of the whole, the sooner you ALL can partake in the fruits of life !!! 🙂

Me:  You are the best !  I am so thankful that we had this chat because if I teach my grandchild to use her imagination, then I am pulling it from a deep knowing that it is real right?

I AM:  Exactly !!!   Have fun and please check in with me again …as I cannot wait to read your “ahas” along with others reading them as well…I of course, will see and experience right with you because I AM you!!!!! Love to your heart and it’s good to see you back at writing.

Why does Mommy have to work?

Child:  I miss my mommy when she goes to work.  Even though I spend time with my Daddy, I still miss my mommy when she goes.  I AM , “why does my mommy have to work?”

I AM Presence:  I know that this saddens your heart little one and as it should, but you live in a world where mommies and daddies alike work to provide food, clothing and housing for you. Their work brings in what you call money and this money pays for all sorts of items.   To help comfort yourself while the two of you are apart, I want you to think of your heart being with hers while she is away.  Before mommy walks out the door to go to work, just put your hand on your heart and your other hand on mommies heart and tell her, ” I love you Mommy”  kiss her good bye and the two of you will be in each others hearts while you apart.  You won’t even know she is gone little one.  You can even talk to her in your head sending her messages of how you are doing…she will hear you and talk back to you..

Child:  How will she hear me?

I AM Presence:  She will feel your heart talking to her and you will feel her heart talking back to you.  Your heart will feel excited with joy and you will feel calm.

Child:  I feel better now, thank you I AM !

I AM Presence:  Always remember this little task and remember dear one, I AM always with you too !  I will  keep you happy and loved until mommy gets home 🙂

Mommy will you get old?

I spent my morning at the dentist, talking with a young mother who has two little boys, one 5 and another 6.  I told her that I was writing a series of children books and the format is in questions that the children of young ask and the higher aspects of myself or them which I call ; the I AM Presence will answer with a higher wisdom.  We proceeded to talk and one of the questions that her 6 year old ask with tears in his eyes, “Mommy will you get old ?”

I AM Presence:  This is so far from the “truth” of you aging!!  You never get old unless you “allow” yourselves too!!!  Let me explain why your people even begin to age, first of all, you have been taught that as you mature in age, you will eventually leave the planet, which you call “dying”.  The best way for me to explain this process is like this, you come out of your mothers belly after sitting in a cocoon for 9 months and once you breathe your first breath you have begun to come to life on the outside world.

On your journey of life, you go about listening, talking, laughing, crying, crawling, walking, jumping and many other experiences.. you are like a butterfly flying from flower to flower…only you are going from experience to experience.  Once you have gone through all that you came here to experience, you transform like a butterfly back into a seed, the butterfly goes back to a catepillar…and guess what my little one, you will go back into another mommies belly and come back as someone new.  You will see your mother again, but this time she may be your father, brother, sister or even a grandparent.  Your youngness is always within you …Do not look at Mommies body as getting old, look at your Mommies heart as getting YOUNG…keep her laughing and smiling at you and she will always stay YOUNG!!!

So you see little one don’t cry, as your Mommy will always be around you in some way shape and form..:)

I wish leaves could talk

My granddaughter Aliyah,  who is 3 years old loves to paint.. I have introduced her to my hobby of painting dead leaves and bring them back to life.  As we sat on the back porch and began our art creation, we chose to paint a leaf..  As Aliyah was painting she  makes a comment, ” I wish leaves could talk.”  I sat there pondering how to respond to her comment when you guessed it, the I AM Presence just popped in and began to speak to her.

I AM Presence:  They do speak my dear little one.. can’t you hear them talking to you?  All things speak  and only you can speak for the leaf.  In your imagination and in your being there is a connection you can create with the leaf.

Aliyah:  How ?

I AM Presence:  Well you look lovingly at the leaf and ask it to speak to you.  Wait a few seconds and then you will hear its voice talk to you.  Try it..  What would you want the leaf to tell you Aliyah?

Aliyah:  Ok, I will look at the leaf and see what it will tell me.  “Hi leaf,  can you talk to me?”  I don’t hear anything…oh wait, it’s saying “Hi back to me!”  and and it’s saying thank you for picking me up from the ground and making me pretty…I love when you take the time to notice me lying on the ground and you pick me up and take me home!! I just love it!!! and I love you Aliyah..”

I AM Presence:  There you go my little light of wonder!  Once you have made this connection you can talk to just about anything on your planet that you would think can’t talk to you.

Aliyah:  Can a dog or cat or even a lizard talk to me?

I AM Presence:  Why sure they can !  Do as I told you and always be loving to the creature and listen to their voice in your head.  The voice may sound like you talking to you, but it’s not, it is the creatures voice whispering into your ears 🙂

Aliyah :  thank you I AM..I love you…..

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